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| my friend ami, who went to exchange with me, is going back to sweden for travelling for one month...jeolous...><...i was thinking what to ask her to bring back for me which will remind me of sweden. the first thing comes to my mind is a green apple, coz it was the cheapest fruit in sweden, and i started to love it when i was there. but it is stupid to bring back an apple especially when you can buy it easily in hong kong. then ami told me one very simple thing that definitely will give me a taste of sweden. guess what, it's the tap water! i miss it so much...the first thing she is going to taste. so simple yet it means a lot, coz it's part of everyday life. now, i'm so looking forward to that bottle of water~ =) seriously, simply a supermarket bag will make me very very happy and sad. | | |
| i thought i will never use this again. time paused since i left sweden. and i was like stuck in that gap, intentionally, or subconsciously, i really dunno. the point is, i dun wanna go back, to life, the reality. i know it is stupid. but whenever i close my eyes, i see the road, the people, everything that link me back to sweden. i guess i've never really let go of that easy life. and when i did, and when i thought everything was going fine, she's leaving for sweden. rite, sweden again, the place that brought me happiness and took it all away. i feel so desperate, helpless. now, i feel bad about a lot of things. i'm getting angry easily. no patience, and dun feel like talking, just wanna stay alone. worse still, for the coming exam, i have no faith at all to pass. i'm so tensed and i have no mood for study. i have my plans, and i want them to happen. and i always hope that those are plans that god agrees. i never truely ask help from Him, i bet one of the reasons is that i dun wanna hear 'no' from him. like i've always said, i know the right thing to do, but to do is another thing. now, i feel like i've been driven into a corner. i guess i have no way to run, except to Him. all i wanna say here is, i'm sorry. i know i've not been a good friend since i was back. and i've changed, into a really terrible shape. i dunno when i can get rid of that negative emotions. i'm truely sorry for everything bad that i've bought. trying to clear my head. | | |
| finally, i'm home. realized that there are a lot of changes, and i know there are more to come. feeling like back from a dream to reality. thinking the streets that i have been walking, people that i have been seeing, everything, they are still here, i can imagine them. i miss sweden. i miss my sometimes boring, lonely life. i miss everything, good and bad. feeling a bit regret that i wasted time sometimes there, wasting my opportunities to explore more this beautiful country. i wonder when i can land my feet on this land again...to meet all my friends there again...so many beutiful memories... just back from a camp actually, meeting a lot of church friends. they changed for good and i'm happy. i need more time to adjust. though i'm physically in hk...but i'm psychologically not... | | |
| finished my last exam!!! wanna scream!!! hope i can pass though, lol anyway, time to play!!! and enjoy the summer!!! and people i'm coming back soon counting down the days!!! be expected~~~ | | |
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